Noise

Do you ever get up in the middle of the night with the feeling that the Lord is teaching you something very important, and if you don't write it down you might forget it. That's where I'm at right now. 

Sitting in the mission house 2000 miles away from home, and when I should be sleeping, I'm thinking, praying, listening. I rolled over and turned my phone on to set my alarm for 5:30am - yes that would be in 5 hours - and had one of those little "come to Jesus" moments. My phone lit up, vibrated about 20 times, and then stopped - leaving me with a screen full of Twitter and Facebook notifications as well as about 45 emails.  I felt like Satan could have just sent me a text that said..."no matter where you go or what you do I will follow you." I scrolled through the most recent tweets that read:

" how would Jesus use social media?"

"how much less productive would Picasso have been if he were also slave to email, socal madia, texting, etc.?"

"im a full-time e-mailer/texter/tweeter/meeter/caller. And sometimes I get to do what I love."

To be completely honest, I think Jesus would say screw social media. What happened to real relationships? What happened to people that were passionate enough about their work that they didn't need to sell it through tweets or blogs or facebook? When did we become so consumed by what was happening with everyone else's lives that we thought it necessary to have a running feed about it all day long?

I say this knowing that I am more guilty than anyone I know for buying into the lie that if I don't jump on the bandwagon of social media that only distracts me, I won't be effective, successful, creative enough, relevant enough - you name it. What if I spent the time I do tweeting, face-booking, and living online instead investing in people, investing in eternity, investing in something that actually matters. What if I didn't allow my life to be filled with so much noise? Is it not a choice? 

Even in a 3rd world country, where I really shouldn't be getting internet at all, I find myself thinking about things like, what if I don't e-mail potential clients back within 24 hours? what if I don't update my blog? what if I don't tweet? will anyone even know I exist when I get back? (okay, that was a little over-exaggerated, but you get the point) So what if I don't? What if I just fall off the face of the earth for the next 2 weeks, and serve the Lord whole-heartedly knowing that I might or might not have any business when I get home? 

Maybe what I should be asking myself is, what if my passion for Jesus, my desire to serve Him, and His ministry through my life was loud enough to drown out all the noise? Would people not follow? Would people not jump on board and get behind my work? I think they probably would. Maybe its time I re-evaluate what is important, and what has fleeting value.

Lord make my life a ministry - not just my time overseas, not just the time I spend with youth, or the times I volunteer at church - but make my entire life a ministry. My work, my conversations, my thoughts, my interactions with people. May every breathe I take be used for Your glory, and not my own. Drown out the noise, so that only You are heard, and only You are seen. Give me a passion for You that is seen in everything I do - that I may be only a vessel.